It's the Little Things

One would think the 1st birthday party would make you feel a host of emotions--he is getting big, he is one, where is my baby....and it did to a degree but the thing that has hit me the hardest is this....his car seat now faces forward. Yes, I said it HIS CAR SEAT NOW FACES FORWARD!

It is wonderful to see his beautiful little eyes in the mirror, to see if he is dozing off to sleep and to not have to do it while looking in my mirror through another mirror is truly great but it means he is getting big! He isn't a baby anymore, he is a toddler. He is a sweet, increasingly independent toddler. I miss holding him and snuggling and rocking. The time goes by so quickly! But it has also brought about some wonderful things too--he is silly, he is rambunctious and he still enjoys a good hug. He is a toddler and we are ready to see what happens this next year!

Happy 1st Birthday

I can't believe you are 1! One year ago, I was in a very different place. A place of sadness, uncertainty and always holding on with a glimmer of hope! In a few days is the anniversary of "the call" , the call we got about you...Baby boy, born Jan 17th, 8 pounds 4 ounces, healthy. Little did we know how our lives would change.

Bentley, you make your momma and daddy so very happy. You have taught us to smile, laugh, be silly and most important you have taught us unconditional love. Tonight we shall celebrate with pancakes (your favorite) and we will sing to you a million times--because my son, you have changed our world.

Happy Birthday B!


I would also like to say, please throw up a prayer for B's birthmom "L" as we are sure this is a hard day for her. How her loss can bring us so much joy is a part of adoption that is so hard to deal with and understand. We Love You "L"!!!

2010 in 5 pictures

So a little challenge from my husband, show 2010 in 5 pictures. We had an exceptional year and I found it hard to pick, however I believe I have gotten the ones that speak volumes.


The first time I held my son---I don't know if I will ever remember the true feelings I had, but when I look at this picture I have feelings of joy, disbelief and love.


I LOVE this picture. I wanted Cullen to be a daddy for so long and I was the one with the fertility issue so I would spend countless hours beating myself up, I was taking away his opportunity to be a dad. This picture fills my heart with joy to see him snuggling his son, his beautiful boy!


Part of wanting to have a family was to be able to experience all the things you love--together as a family. Cullen loves the aquarium and this picture shows my boys sharing the love of the aquarium together!


This is the face I have fallen in love with, this is the face I will do ANYTHING for. This face has taught me unconditional love!


The day we officially became a family, he took our last name and it was glorious.


As you know we have much to be thankful for and 2010 was an amazing year for us. Not only with Bentley but we have all been healthy, have a roof over our heads and jobs to go to. It has been a year to remember and we look forward to watching our little guy grow in 2011 and embrace whatever may come our way. I hope you have a great start to the New Year!