The Difference A Year Makes

I have done a lot of reflecting lately on how lonely we were last Christmas, how sad we were last Christmas and how we felt hopelessness last Christmas. Being a waiting couple is difficult, each and every day is difficult and then add the holidays and I am sorry but it is just too damn hard! I know many couples are waiting to build families, whether it is through fertility treatments, through adoption, through foster care and the list goes on....and the waiting is hard during the holidays. I know your pain, I know your heartache but I hope you find just an ounce or more of holiday cheer this season. You deserve it! Give yourself a break from the worry (easier said then done) and live in the moment. For someday, trust me, you will be reflecting on it too.

I am forever grateful that Bentley's birthmom selected us to be his parents. We are blessed beyond belief and we love him with all our heart. I can only imagine that she is also feeling all kinds of emotions this time of year, particularly as we approach his first birthday in less than a month. Please Lord be with "L" as she goes through the holidays, hold her for us and let her know how much we love her.

We look forward to celebrating but it is also important to recognize where you came from and encourage all those standing in our same shoes one short year ago! I pray that you will find peace this holiday season!

Bentley's First Santa Visit....

Or so we thought! After his visit we were a proud mommy and daddy. Bentley didn't cry, he was shy but didn't shed any tears. We even got him to smile after Santa rubbed his furry cuff on his nose! We told his grandma and grandpa about it and gave them their own copy of the photo (which is pretty cute if I must say) and they so kindly said, when we have been walking at the mall with Bentley we have him say Hi to Santa and Santa talks to him. So---for the 2nd, 3rd or maybe 4th time...Bentley didn't cry when he saw Santa :)

Merry Christmas!!

Hello....Is Anyone There?

Yikes, November must have been busy. It is almost over and the last post I did was November 8th. Tomorrow we welcome December and I can only imagine how quickly the time will go. Before I know it, we will be celebrating our babies 1st birthday! YIKES!!

Well, a lot has happened since my last post. Bentley is no longer slow and steady in the crawling department. He is fast, furious, curious and persistent. He pulls himself up on everything, he stands all alone for many seconds at a time, he cruises but he doesn't realize he can't just fling himself forward or backward when he wants to go somewhere. We have been lucky and have been able to catch him on most occurrences but I fear someday he will take a big spill. I guess that is part of it all.

He had a nasty virus last week and it was horrible to see him sick. It was 3-4 days of high temps and a sad and sick little guy. He was feeling better by Thanksgiving--thankfully :)

I will post some Thanksgiving pictures soon....this year we have so much to be thankful for and we all commented on how our lives have changed so much in just one year. We can't wait to continue to celebrate the holidays and will enjoy every minute of it, it is what we have been waiting for...for many, many years!!!!

Slow and Steady.....

....wins the race...right?

Well, we have a crawler folks! He moves fairly slow and I am thankful for that! It is amazing how one milestone makes such a difference. He seems so big, he doesn't seem like a baby anymore. I can see him spot something and then he moves....not fast...but he moves and he explores! Oh my---we are in trouble when he can move fast! Watch out cats---he is MOBILE!!!!

Ahoy Matey!

Our little pirate did pretty good last night for his first Halloween!

The cousins that still dress up:




As promised a couple 9 month pictures---seriously, this babe is getting too big!

Big Day!

We had our finalization on Wednesday, October 27th. The trail/ceremony(whatever you call it) didn't last long but the memory of it will last forever.

Here we are with our friend LeAnn:
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Daddy has been busy carving pumpkins this year....here are a few pictures to prove it!

Bentley has a love for Mickey Mouse! It really is the Hot Dog Dance--but he knows who Mickey is and it is silly and the cutest thing to watch...so....




Happy Halloween--I will post costume pictures next week!

9 months

Seriously--9 months old? What the heck!

We had B's appointment and we got a clean bill of health--those words always make a mom and dad happy! He is a growing boy! He is 23 pounds 12 ounces and is in the 90% for weight and is 29 1/4 long and is in the 82% for height! We have a big, healthy boy on our hands!

Bentley is changing everyday. He is working on his 7th tooth--watch out little fingers the bite is pretty ferocious. He isn't crawling but can inch his way around and is really interested in standing! He pretty much eats most of what we eat mixed in with some baby food. Our doctor said he is probably dreaming now and I think we had that going on last night. 4 a.m.---and he was wide awake, I couldn't get him to sleep without going to the magic recliner. While holding my baby he finally fell asleep and minutes later a smile and then a jolt, sad frown, whimpers and snuggling close to me. It broke my heart--needless to say we stayed in the magic recliner till it was time to shower (I know I won't win mother of the year for that)!

We have our court date next week and are looking forward to it---he has always been ours but just knowing his last name will be our last name and that the adoption is finalized---it will just feel so good!

I will post pictures soon!

Happy Anniversary

Today we celebrate 10 years of marriage. Probably at this time 10 years ago I was getting my hair done and was a nervous wreck! Oh how things have changed over the last 10 years!

Happy Anniversary Babe! Here's to many more glorious years together. Love you!


On a quick side note--just got back from vacation in Phoenix and we had a great time. Pictures and a post coming soon!

Pumpkin Patch

It had been a while since the entire family made the trip out to the local pumpkin patch, but my brother was in town from Denver and we got our schedules worked out and on Sunday the entire clan embraced the pumpkin patch with all it had to offer! Here are some pictures from the "experience"





I love you October! I love the crunchy leaves, the cooler temps, the beautiful colors the warm clothes and cozy blankets! October will forever be a special month for our family. Not only will Cullen and I celebrate our anniversary (10 years coming up next week) but we will also celebrate B's adoption finalization! October, you have been so good to us! :)

8 Months

Yikes! 8 months old. I can't even believe it. He is learning, growing and changing so quickly. He is so much fun. On Friday I had Bentley and his cousin Jayla for a couple hours and it was fun but a lot of work. I think we had a little glimpse into our future of the two of them together! Bentley is all boy and Jayla is all girl. I am sure someday she will rule his world but right now he is the one "calling the shots"--at least a little :) He loves to bang toys together and scream in delight and that scares the little cutie pie! He tried to steal her pacifier--he tried to take the bow out of her hair--he tried eating her feet! She did NOT find any of it amusing. I can't wait to see them together when they are both mobile! So scary but it will be so fun!

B is 8 months going on a year! He is so inquisitive and is reaching to try and pull himself up but can't quite figure it out. We believe we have a fourth tooth coming in--on the top. So that makes 3 on the bottom and hopefully one on top--just in time for Halloween! He has started saying "momma" and "dadda" but we can't tell if he knows which is which or if he is just saying that! He is able to go from sitting to his tummy and starts "swimming" and sometimes looks like he is going to crawl but I do think we have some time before he figures it out (thankfully) :)
He loves animals. Loves soccer balls, baseballs and really all balls. He is our love and we can't wait for the fun holidays coming up!

We are anticipating a fun visit this weekend with his birth mom---we have a big trip to the zoo planned!

8 month pictures coming soon.

On a serious note.....

(doesn't he look serious?)

WE HAVE A COURT DATE!
On October 27, 2010 we will go to court to have B's adoption finalized....and it feels so good!

Catching Up....

I have not been a diligent blogger lately so I will try to catch you up in pictures. We took B to his first NYY game when they played KC. He was such a good baby despite the nasty heat!

7 Months

Bentley turned 7 months the same day Cullen turned 36! I think we did the math and that is something like 432 months old for Cullen! We even took a picture with a sign for Cullen that states his age in months and a sign for B!

Oh 7 months--you are a fun age!
He is sitting on his own and quite good too. Doesn't have much trouble unless he is being nosy and gets himself twisted around--then he falls! He is really into balls! Soccer balls seem to be his ball of choice (good news for the Wadleigh's, bad news for the Chollett's) :)

He eats solids at breakfast, lunch and dinner and has 3 bottles a day which are either 7 or 8 ounces! He is a big boy and we love him to pieces.

We play a good game of hide and seek and he is so funny as he anticipates the scare. He is wearing 9 month old clothes--and the other night we put him in a 9 month sleeper and it was almost too short! He is a lean mean fighting machine and this short and round momma doesn't know what to do with him!

Pictures to come soon! He is growing like a weed!

Happy Birthday (a day late)

Happy Birthday (yesterday) to my wonderful husband! Another year has gone by and we have experienced and witnessed much. I am humbled to walk this path with you. Proud to call you my husband, friend and soul mate and always in awe with how our son lights up when you walk in the room. We are blessed to have you in our life!

Here is to another adventurous and wonderful year!

We love you

Retiring

I said it last night--This Ho is retiring! Retiring from at least weeknight concerts, so I guess that is semi-retirement!

We went to an awesome concert last night. The Black Keys--if you haven't seen them---what are you waiting for? GO and Go NOW! It was fun, it was nice to be alone with my husband, it was hot (heat advisory), it was a crappy venue and it was late (started at 9 p.m.), but it was fun and the live music was awesome. However, as we are waiting for the show to start and it is 10 p.m., I think about my bed, about my little boy and about how I feel like I am too old for this scene.

I make the announcement--and my best bud says--no, not this HO is retiring---this Momma is retiring! And you know what--I liked the way it sounded. Finally a momma and it is true, I want to be home where my heart is. I will continue to go on dates with Cullen--alone, but maybe just not dates that end at 1 a.m. (maybe every once and a while). It is good for B to be without us but on a Monday night with work calling the next day??? Yep, semi-retirement sounds good right now.

However, please note, I can do the "Brett Farve" and pull myself out of retirement any old time!

Where is my little baby?

It just doesn't seem possible--Bentley will be 7 months old next week and while that isn't old, he isn't a little baby anymore. He was asleep in his crib yesterday and Cullen said it best--he looks like a little boy! He is an explorer, examiner and inquisitive and I love it, but I can't imagine how crazy it will be when he can move! It is cute as he is sitting up and cranking his head every which way, probably won't be so cute when he is trying to climb the couch or entertainment center!

He loves our cats and Maggie loves him (Rosco does too--he just doesn't let B "pet" him like Maggie does). In fact the other day he got Maggie by the tail and managed to lift her a little off the ground! Not only are we in for a rude awakening when he becomes mobile--two little felines will be too!

B--your smile is contagious and your laughter divine! We love you more and more each and every day that goes by!

Do you like shots?

I am not talking about the small glass with the potent, yet sometimes delightful alcohol--not that kind of shot--I am talking about the needle variety.

I say a big HELL no I don't like shots! When I hear the word shots, I remember shots from my trying to have a baby days--big shots, in the stomach, sometimes multiple times a day.

Now, shots are for our little guy and he doesn't like them either--again--why would you?

B had his 6 month check today and it is music to a mom and dad's ears to hear "I can't find anything wrong with him" and on our finalization paperwork our favorite doctor wrote: well baby, excellent health and we are forever thankful for that!

Here is how B stacks up:
Weight 20 pounds 15 ounces 92 percentile
Height 28.5 inches 95 percentile

He is a big, healthy boy and despite the tears he did just fine today. Now--on to baby proofing the house, it makes me tired just thinking about it.

No Energy

I am tired
I am really tired
A nap would only make it worse
A nap would hurt

I am a mom
I love being a mom
I love my baby
but I really love sleep too!

It is funny how just 6 months ago I thought being tired was hard but that wasn't being tired, that was being lazy or something other than being tired because my friends I AM REALLY TIRED now and I know it comes with the territory and chasing after B. The good news--my partner in crime is back from his work trip and we are glad to have him home. The Chollett house is at Full Strength (as they say in Hockey).

B has his 6 month check up on Wednesday and that means a lot to us. It means finding out how much he weighs, how tall he is, it means shots, it means knowing he is growing and is healthy and it also means we start the finalization of his adoption. The lawyer has been called, the papers are being drafted and we should have a court date within the next couple months. We are thrilled and it will be nice to finally have that piece of paper with his last name matching ours--it is just a formality because since the day we brought him home he has been ours and been a part of our family but it is the final piece and we are so excited!

I will post his stats this week after his appointment (any guesses???)....in the meantime, here are some more photos.....

Do you ever feel this way----I do sometimes

Do you ever feel
Like a fish out of water
Well I do sometimes
Do you ever feel
Like a lamb out to slaughter
Well I have
In my mind
Do you ever feel
like nothing is real
Tell me has it ever blown
Has it ever blown your mind
Do you ever feel
Through a Wisconsin winter
And still you had to go outside
Did you ever lose
But feel like the winner
And nothing could f*$k with your pride
Do you ever feel
like nothing is real
Has it ever
Has it ever blown
Has it ever blown your mind

Lyrics from one of my favorite artists!
Song is called Blown Your Mind---

Sometimes my life blows my mind and sometimes it is a good thing and sometimes it is a scary thing and sometimes it just makes me numb. I heard this song today and I could feel it--and at work today it ended up being "one of those days" and I am a single parent this week and have been since Sunday and will be till late on Friday night because my husband is traveling for work...all that and much more blows my mind!

Tomorrow is a new day....

6 months

B will be 6 months on Saturday---6 months! What?

We have the best photographer and we did some pictures this weekend. One of our favorites is this one......


check out her blog for more pictures of B and if you are in the area--I highly recommend her! http://elizabethrosephoto.blogspot.com/

He is changing so quickly and he changes everyday. He is sitting up now--pretty much on his own until he gets too tired. He has this new little laugh/noise/not sure what it is...that sounds like a machine gun and makes me just giggle. He started using a little sippy cup yesterday with a little water and he thinks he is hot stuff!
We are having so much fun with him and he just continues to bless us beyond measure!

Ever Changing

Our little baby is getting to be an independent thinker and quite honestly it frightens me :)

Even just a few weeks ago--we could predict his routine--predict what he wants. Now today just a few weeks later he knows what he wants, he sometimes fights his sleep and he tends to be a tad stubborn....and I LOVE IT! It means he is growing, he is learning but it also means that I need to adapt and have patience as he figures out what he wants (but can't communicate it)! Can you believe he will be six months old next week? A half year--we have been blessed with this child for a half year! Wow--time goes fast.

He has another tooth--he is rolling over like crazy--he has decided he enjoys sleeping on his side--he likes to stand up with assistance--he likes to stand up on the outside of the exersaucer instead of inside it--he loves green beans and bananas--his laugh is contagious--his smile melts my heart and I am proud to be his mom, despite his ever changing ways!

B on the day of the Entrustment Ceremony in February


B just a week or so ago---he is a growing boy!

I HEART World Cup Soccer

I love soccer
I love world cup soccer
Even though both my favorites (Italy and USA) are out of it, I still enjoy watching the games---if only I didn't have to work during the day! DRATS.

Here is a picture of B and Jayla before watching one of the Italy games!

Have Love--Will Travel....

and travel we did--over 1,000 miles in 4 days! What did we find?

Much love in the western part of the state and when you think you couldn't be loved anymore, we were showered with love in Cheyenne!

We traveled fast, we traveled far and we traveled with a happy and very good little 5 month old!

We started the trip with a stop out in Western Nebraska to visit B's birthmom and her family. We had a wonderful lunch and spent around 3 hours just visiting, laughing and loving on a very special little guy, who squirmed and squealed and they loved every minute of it. The Lord made this plan and it couldn't be more beautiful, yet hard to describe to the people who don't get to experience the love we share for B and the love we have for each other. It is a relationship I will NEVER take for granted.

Next stop--Cheyenne to see my grandparents (B's great-grandparents) and let me tell you--they couldn't have looked happier! My sister, her husband, Jayla and my mom all went out too. They met us out in Cheyenne since we left early to visit with L. My brother from Denver and his girlfriend even came to Cheyenne to see the babies. We had a nice visit with my grandparents who are in their 80's and don't have air conditioning (it was HOT) but it made me thankful that we were able to share our miracles with them and to see the light in their eyes made the travel all worthwhile.

As Cullen and I discussed on the way out there--our life isn't just about us anymore, we have an obligation to do what is right for B and what will make a difference in his life. Of course we loved the trip but the trip wasn't about us--it was about him and the others in our lives that we love...and it felt so right when I looked at each person holding B---people from all different sections of our lives--and it made my heart swell with pride and love for the family of three that we have become!

I Spy...something little and something white!!

We have a tooth! It has broken through (I can feel it) but still has a little ways to go, but it is so cute to look at--if he will let you. Once you try to look inside his mouth he pushes his tongue out, making it really hard to see what is going on inside.

Yikes--5 months and a tooth--kiddo you better slow down a little bit! Mommy and daddy think you are getting too big too fast!

Father's Day 2010

One Year ago my blog said:

To my dear, sweet husband:
You are an amazing, funny and loving husband and I love you. You will be an amazing daddy and I can't wait to see you hold our baby for the first time. I watch you with our dear friends little boy and you are just beautiful as you hold him and talk to him. You make those adorable funny faces and he smiles at you while you talk to him.

Thank you for walking on the path with me, for holding my hand when I felt weak or for kissing me when my heart would break during each disappointing treatment. For reminding me that we will be ok and that we will weather this storm.

On this Father's Day I celebrate you silently because I know that someday you will make the most amazing daddy to our amazing child

What a difference a year makes!

To My Husband and My Son's Father:

You are an amazing husband, friend, partner and father. You make us both smile and laugh. You have grown so much in the last 5 months--you walk taller, smile bigger and love deeper--you are finally a father.

I thank you for always being there for me and for B. I love watching you interact with him and I love the smile that comes to his face and the way his eyes light up when he sees you.

On this Father's Day I celebrate you loudly because you are the amazing father I always knew you would be!

I love you.....WE love you!

5 Months---going on 10 months

Why do they get so big so quickly?

It seems like in the past few weeks B has learned all kinds of things.....

-Rolls over
-Has started to watch us eat--therefore he eats solids with us every night at dinner
-Has become so observant (he is a nosy little guy)
-Gets angry when a toy confuses or frustrates him (funny but sad)
-Really recognizes his mommy and daddy
-Has decided he will skip sitting up and likes to stand with assistance and then smiles like he knows he is so big!
-LOVES his toes and has started licking them!
-Has found the cats and can "pet" them (which means he either grabs their ears, hair or whiskers or they run their heads against his hands for attention)

We can't wait to see what the next several months entail--but it sure would be nice if we could just slow it down a tad!

In Awe of God's Plan

Saturday little Jaylabean was baptized and it was a beautiful ceremony and we had a great time.


Sunday at Mass I sat while Bentley was in Megan's arms and Jayla in her dad's arms and thought--Lord, your plan was masterful, full of love, full of promise and was nothing but delivered on time. How blessed we are that we have B and they have J and we can have them grow up together, something we both hoped and prayed for. In my darkest of hours when I questioned his plan, wondered why me and felt my faith being tested, He was creating the next stop on my path/journey. I look at our child and I know that he was meant to be with us, for us to be his parents. The deep, dark eyes and smile that greets me when I go in to get him out of his crib every morning is a beautiful miracle of lives entwined and is proof to me that God had the plan and waiting the long 4 years was worth the wait (although you couldn't have told me that during the wait).

Today as we celebrate his 5th month I am thankful to you Lord for the plan and for the love of our lives!

Rollin' Rollin' Rollin'

We have a Roller Folks!

B officially rolled over on Thursday, June 10. It was a momentous milestone and our house was in official celebration mode as he finally got that pesky arm out of the way and rolled over. There was cheering and clapping and smiles all around....and it was just the three of us but if you were outside you would have thought it was an entire stadium of fans! It was adorable; he was confused and we were proud!

Oh, we are blessed!

Summer is Here

The sun is out, the temperature is up and of course in Nebraska so is the humidity and storms!

We have been busy...trying out new foods for B. He has mastered the oatmeal, loves sweet peas, green beans, squash, sweet potato, carrots and bananas. He is an old pro with the spoon in his mouth! It has been so fun trying new things and watching him react. Oh yeah, he gagged on avocado that I mashed up. It shouldn't be funny--but it was.

We had our first pool experience--we only stayed in for 10 minutes (I think it took us longer to dress him and put his sunscreen, hat and sunglasses on) but he did ok. Didn't cry and didn't scream with joy....and we call that a success.

His grandma and grandpa (cullen's parents) went on a quick vacation and came back with plenty of gifts for him! This is one of the favorites....and is just plain silly!


My very own coon skin hat!

We have a trip to visit B's birthmom at the end of the month, it is about 6 hours away and after we visit her we will go to Cheyenne to visit my grandma and grandpa. I can't wait for them to meet him. We will be traveling with my sister and her family and my mom.

The last two pictures are from the pool. Doesn't he just look cute in that swimsuit! The other picture is with his cousin Jaylabean---there are many days ahead of pure joy and trouble---I can't wait!

91 & 92

Yep, those are the percentiles that B is in for height and weight! We have a big boy on our hands!

His 4 month check was on Friday and he is at 17 pounds 10 ounces and is 26.5 inches long. He continues to provide so much joy in our life. Not only in our lives but our families lives.

It is the most beautiful thing to see--Grandma and Grandpa holding him and loving him. It is beautiful to see all the cousins, aunts and uncles line up to hold him at family gatherings! This is what life is all about! What we waited so long for! So worth the wait!

He is into his hands and he found his thumb and will occasionally suck it but then goes for the entire hand. He grabs his toes and this weekend started kind of sticking his tongue out....wouldn't you love to know what they think!

We hit another milestone last night---solid food! He is on AR formula so we skipped cereal and started oatmeal. Well, it was a little runny so we will thicken it up tonight but overall I think he enjoyed it and it was just too funny to watch him explore that new substance in his mouth!

Our baby B--we love you so much, you make us proud and you make us both strive to be the best we can be individually and together as parents.





Eating solid foods is hard work--I will take my bottle and just relax! :)

Flying Solo

Cullen is gone.
At a conference for work.
In Vegas nonetheless.
We miss him.
It has only been 24 hours (we have another 60 hours to go).
I can handle it alone, it's just I don't like to handle it alone.
There isn't anyone to share his smiles and laughter with.

I pretty much did it alone when B was a month old and Cullen had play practice and would go to work, come home and go to play practice but that was before we had time to form this special bond together as parents! Now we help each other out, one feeds while the other cleans, one plays while the other cooks, we play together with B and we tackle bath time together with such joy and wait to see who gets peed on first (for the record it is usually me). I miss my partner in crime, my husband, my sons father and my best friend. Hurry home Daddy---we don't just need you....we want you at home with us! :)

Mother's Day 2010

I had a great Mother's Day Weekend despite having the flu! Yep, the flu! I won't go into the fun details of the flu but will say even with not feeling good, I had a great Mother's Day. Cullen wrote me a loving and caring note on this very blog (thanks babe), he got me a cute necklace with Bentley's name on it, and I got cards from many! We saw Grandpa Jim and Grandma Suzi (L's parents) on Saturday, they were in town for graduation. We had a wonderful visit, they held and loved Bentley, they brought me a beautiful plant and they delivered a nice card with a lovely note from L. And despite not feeling great, I got to nap with my little boy and had a good day. I got a very heart warming text from L on Sunday--"Happy Mother's Day! To the best mom I know." The courage, the love....I just can't explain how she makes me feel! She makes me feel so special...she picked us to raise her son and yet she continues to thank us and send us kind notes. God's plan is beautiful and we are all learning grace and love as we raise Bentley together.

Thank you all for the warm wishes and nice notes on my first Mother's Day! I can't explain how wonderful it is to be a mom to the cutest little boy I know :)

Hijacked

Hello! Cullen here, since it's Mother's Day, I'm hijacking this blog and doing a post about my favorite Mom.

Marilyn,

You are truly my inspiration. Seeing you with B and how you make his face light up, just makes my heart swell. You are such an amazing Mom. I'm proud to be able to finally call you that. You are a MOM and you deserve everything! You are my rock and my foundation. I didn't really think it was possible, but I love you more every single day. Thank you for all that you do! I've truly been blessed and I want you to know that. I thank God every day for the life he's given us. So Happy FIRST Mother's Day to the best MOM I know. I love you!

Cullen

Mother's Day

What is Mother's Day?

One day that you celebrate the important woman/mother/grandmother in your life. It can also be a day of pain as you long for the day when you can be celebrated. A day that makes you sad because you just want to be a mom. I remember this time one year ago and I remember giving my sister a little card to give her hope...someday you will be a mom. I remember Mother's Day not being as hard as Father's Day...because after all, I was the "issue" in the fertility puzzle so I always felt way worse for my husband then I did for myself!

What does a year bring? Me a mother, my sister a mother and today I anticipate Mother's Day with renewed hope, love for my son, excitement for my sister but I feel a great pain, a pain I didn't think I would feel. I think of "L" Bentley's birthmother and I am guessing this Mother's Day will be hard for her and my heart aches for her. We have an open relationship and we are actually sending her a package today to celebrate her! In our last visit we discovered a kind of candy she loves but has a hard time finding....so she is getting a case of it! We are also including a ton of pictures of Bentley for her but the thing I am most proud of and the thing I hope she loves is the gift of a blanket. It isn't any blanket...Cullen's mom made a blanket for her and she made a tiny matching one for Bentley. We are sending it with a note that reads: As the yarn in this blanket is entwined, you will forever be entwined in our hearts. I hope she enjoys cuddling with it...and we even let Bentley cuddle with it and took pictures to send to her...so she can see how he loved it too! (yes, it is pink, that is L's favorite color and who cares if B has a pink blanket..tough boys wear pink) :)

Here are a few pictures.





I only hope this care package gives her a smile and I know it won't make it better but I hope she knows how much we care for her and think that she is an amazing woman for what she has given us! We love you "L"!

Dreams

I am a dreamer. Not a dreamer in the sense of I would like to someday have a big house but a go to sleep dream strange dreams kind of gal and I usually remember them. I haven't had many dreams since Bentley has come home. I don't think I get enough sleep to actually get there.

Last night I had a dream! Can you believe it? I might be getting some good quality sleep! I can even remember the dream. That in our house is classified as BTS (Big Time Stuff)!

On to more exciting news. Bentley turned 3 months on April 17--yep, that has been several weeks ago. So today I leave you some photos of my prince charming. It won't be long till he is 4 months old--and I can't even believe how quickly it has gone.


He has now found his hands and he put them in his mouth all the time. He is quite the talkative little thing and it is so cute. He loves to imitate his daddy...they make some funny noises. He is wearing some 3 month stuff but is so long and a little chubby too so he is mainly wearing 6 month stuff! This kiddo is long--I am not sure how to handle long! I have the chubby down but long--it will be interesting. We are anxious to go to the doctor at the end of May for his 4 month check up to see how he is measuring!

We love him to pieces and each day our lives gets a little brighter because of him!